No. This word is an adjective, noun, adverb and an exclamation according to the little dictionary widget on my computer. Did you know that it was so many things? It is such a simple word. N.O. Two letters that pack so much punch. I feel that as a society, we have become afraid of the word and the possible meanings of it when said. The fear of rejection and failure and what would happen when someone says no to us, or when we say it to someone else. But something happened to me today, and what I believe has been happening to me for awhile. I am what can be described as a "people pleaser". I like being able to satisfy what everyone expects, wants, needs. What often happens though is that my own needs, wants, desires, needs get lost in the mix of it all. Today, no became an empowering word that allowed me to push past what I thought I was capable.
SO! The setting of when this incredible realization came about: Crossfit at 6am. Have been loving the workouts-but let me tell you, when you don't do it consistently=death. Todays workout was 400m run and 15 overhead squats--we were to do 5 rounds of this for time. This was AFTER we had already done 5x5 of overhead squats to find our 1 rep max. Now, I hate running. I hated running when I was "in shape" and I hate running now. It just isn't fun for me. I contemplated every excuse I could to get out of this running. But I said nothing. I grit my teeth and I went. I wasn't fast, I got lapped by my partner, but today, for some reason, it didn't matter. I was doing it. Every part of my aching body told me to quit, told me that I couldn't do it, told me to stop. Now working out and this lifestyle that I am now living is all mental. I said no to quitting, I said no to my legs who were attempting to become tree trucks stuck in the cement. I said no to the excuses, the short cuts, the everything that has been holding me back thus far. Today, saying no empowered me to finish. I finished and that was everything. Before, it was walking through the door of that garage gym that was my big accomplishment. Today it was knowing that I can do more that just walk in- I can walk in and kick some--excuse my language but it is necessary to emphasize my point--ASS! I think Nike was the company that said if you have a body, you're an athlete. I am an athlete. Today, I proved to no one but myself that there really isn't anything that I can't do. And I needed that. Because to do something like this and succeed means only doing it for you and no one else.
BUT! Enough of that blah blah "I'm special" shtuff--which I totally am--but you don't need to hear much more about it. Because working out is not glamorous. People fart, people sweat, people smell, people fall, people drop really heavy weights etc etc--I'm usually doing all of those things. But no one cares! Because as much as we believe that everyone is starting and judging us, they aren't. They are too focused on not trying to fart while squatting as you are---lesson of the day...your welcome.
Do great things today. If you don't, then don't complain when nothing great happens to you ever!
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